Diet derailing?

Weekends are hard on me. I used to sit and watch TV and eat my weight in potato chips and now I get really anxious wanting to eat everything in sight. So what did I do? I cooked! I have my friends little brothers birthday party tonight, and I always love to make something fun, unique, and good for every party that I go to. Today I decided to make a "chocolate peanut butter pie." Yes, I know, not diet food, at all, but I am just going to try not to eat it. Or maybe just one little sliver...

Definitely not diet conscious. I used an oreo cookie crust, peanut butter/powdered sugar layer, fat free chocolate pudding layer, and a fat free cool whip layer (cool HHWHIP anyone?) topped with chopped reeses cups. MMMM.

But, to not totally derail all of my progress, I made myself a sweet low calorie treat to hopefully get it out of my system before I eat the whole pie.

Yummy. Fat Free chocolate pudding with low fat cool whip for only 200 calories. Healthy and a great way to satisfy that craving without going overboard. I always like to put it in a nice glass so I feel fancy.

So hopefully tonight will not be the death of my diet, I am determined to keep going. I cannot believe we are HALFWAY through P90X now! It really is amazing. I didn't weight myself before the start of all of this, but I guessed on a weight that I knew I was at one point, and from that estimate, I have lost 11 pounds. Yes, ELEVEN POUNDS. I still am not sure I believe it, but I will take an eleven pound weight loss any day.

Hey now Sunny Anderson

http://www.foodnetwork.com/recipes/sunny-anderson/baked-zucchini-recipe/index.html

I was so proud of myself for inventing a recipe and now Sunny went and stole it. How rude.

Okay, probably not. I highly doubt Sunny reads my blog (HI SUNNY!!) but it was pretty funny when Matt and I were watching TV and this came on. I was telling everyone who would listen to me about my new creation. Lame, party of me.

MMMMMM

MMMM last night H said I made the best dinner ever. I have to agree. And it was really really healthy.

Our favorite place is benihana, but it does not always agree with our wallets or our waistlines, so we hardly ever get it. About a year ago, I tried to recreate their magical yummy mustard sauce since it is so so yummy and actually makes me want to eat chicken instead of just tolerating chicken. Some trials have gone well, some not so well, but last night it was amazing. So we had chicken breast, zucchini, and white onions, with mustard sauce for dinner. It was amazing and tasted just like we were at benihana. I was so proud of myself and H could not stop telling me how good it was. I wish I would have taken a picture of all this gloriousness, but I was too hungry to stop for a second. It looked similar to this, without the beef, but it looked EXACTLY like benihana, we were both so amazed.

Basically, I just cubed the chicken, and cooked it in a pan with a little garlic, sesame seeds, salt and pepper, and a little bit of butter. With the veggies, I did the same. I cooked the chicken for about 15-20 minutes and the veggies about 10-15 minutes. Here is the recipe for the sauce I made. http://www.food.com/recipe/Benihana-Magic-Mustard-Sauce-25351

• 1 tablespoon sesame seed, crushed and toasted
• 3 tablespoons dry mustard
• 2 tablespoons hot water
• 3/4 cup soy sauce
• 1/4 clove garlic, crushed
• 3 tablespoons heavy cream, whipped

You basically throw everything except the cream in the blender and blend it well. Then stir in the cream and serve. 

 I think I used a little less dry mustard since that stuff is really pungent, but it came out great.

On another note, weekends are so hard for me to work out! We did about a half hour of yoga since that was all we could take on Saturday. How sad is it that we are so out of shape we cannot do yoga? Pretty sad. That stuff is so hard. But we were only able to do like 10 minutes of it before, so we are happy. Also Sunday was such a lazy day, I could only drag myself off of the couch for 15 minutes of the workout. How lazy of me! But, I kept in my calories so I guess that helps.

Well, that was unpleasant.

32 days in! Yay! Ready for 30 day progress pictures! Yay!

NO. Those pictures did not come out well. At all. I didn't really notice any difference and of course Matt looks great. He still has a long way of course, but at least he had a noticable differnece! I am slightly jealous of him. But oh well, today is a new day, and I am bound a determined to make this work. I have noticed I do not have that jiggly boob/ armpit fat anymore, which is great, so I just have to tweak my expecations a little bit and hopefully next month will yeild better results.

After talking to some wonderful ladies yesterday, I realize that I may not have had the best results since I might not be eating enough. I have cheated, of course, but mainly I will stay around 1400-1500 calories, BUT I am also working off a ton with the workouts, and not refueling enough. So I have to start watching my diet more closely and tracking dilligantly. I need more protien so I am off to the store tonight to get some supplies.

Also, Matt got us fancy new heart rate moniters for an early birthday present and they have been eye opening! We have only used them twice so far, but I worked 500-something the first day with strength training and 640 yesterday with the cardio! I was shocked. I though I had done it wrong, but looking around online that seems like an average amount for P90X workouts. Its hardcore.

My arms really hurt from the month 2 arm workout, but its a good hurt of course. Goodbye boob fat, hello bikini...well.. someday.

One step forward, two steps back.

I have been feeling less motivated lately, even though we have still been working out. I am kind of in a slump, we are now 30 days into our P90X and I do not feel any different. There was a few days where I felt thinner, but now I feel like I gained it back or something. I hate that my weight can define how I feel in my day to day life.

We had a party at my house this weekend, and I felt like I had a really cute outfit. My friends love to take pictures and always want a girl picture. Bad idea. I hate pictures, I really really despise them. The pictures are so unflattering for me, and I feel especially whale-like when I am sandwiched between my thin friends. I felt so bad after I saw those pictures. I went straight to my room and put on my stretchy pants. It is still hard for me to see myself at this size, and see how tight the clothes are fitting me.

I am really in a slump and I want to get out. I was doing so well (mentally at least) and that really helps to stay motivated. I think we might take our 30day progress pictures tonight so hopefully that will not bum me out more. I have thought once or twice about posting them on here to make myself continue to move forward, but I am not sure I have the strength yet. I was really hoping to see more of a difference at this point.

Oh well, I am done being a debbie downer for right now. It is easy to stay down and get off track, but it is much harder to continue on even if I am feeling bad today.

"If you don't do what's best for your body, you're the one who comes up on the short end"
- Julius Erving

So I don't want to brag or anything

But I did 111 pushups and 54 pull ups last night. Keep in mind I do most of my pushups on my knees and use a chair for support with my pullups. BUT I know for a fact that I am much stronger now than I was when I started. I push myself to do more now, but when I started I would just give up.

I also joined myfitnesspal and I do not know how I feel about it yet. Tracking the food is okay, even though I had a book that I would use anyways, but the exercise part is throwing me off. First off, there is no "P90X ARMS" workout logged in, I have to put in each workout separately. And secondly, it does not count any calories for strength training! I am working my ASS off, I know I am burning some calories! And the last thing I want to do it under-eat. I think I am going to get a heart rate monitor so I can be sure.

On another note, Matt has started to notice his pants fitting looser! I have also noticed a flatter tummy on me as well. I have not felt a difference in my clothes yet, but I will stay optimistic. My hips and thighs have been a problem all my life, so I am sure they will be the last to go.

Indiscretions.

The weekend is my enemy. Summer weekends is when people want to have BBQs, go out for drinks, or have a potluck. I cannot say I did well, but I will also say I did better than I usually would have done.

I am still trucking along as best I can. I missed one day and I am going to do everything in my power to make it up tonight. I hate that I let myself miss a day but I love that I feel guilty about it. That is definitely growth in my book.

I think I might try this for dinner tonight. Looks good, easy, and have all of the supplies at my house.

http://www.skinnytaste.com/2011/07/easiest-pasta-and-broccoli-recipe.html#more
(my new favorite website by the way)

Easiest Pasta and Broccoli RecipeGina's Weight Watcher RecipesServings: 6 • Size: 1 1/2 cups • Old Points: 6 pts • Points+: 8 pts
Calories: 289.2 • Fat: 7.1 g • Carbs: 48 g • Fiber: 4.9 g • Protein: 11.7 g • Sugar: 1.0
Sodium: 103.7 (without salt)

Ingredients:

• 12 oz uncooked pasta
• 6 1/2 cups fresh broccoli florets, no stems
• 5 cloves garlic, smashed and chopped
• 1/4 cup grated Parmesan or Romano
• 2 tbsp olive oil, divided
• salt and fresh cracked pepper

Directions:

Bring a large pot of salted water to a boil. When water boils, add pasta and broccoli at the same time and cook according to pasta instructions for al dente. When pasta is almost done cooking, reserve about 1 cup of the pasta water and set aside. Drain pasta and broccoli
Return the pot to the stove and set heat to high; add 1 tbsp olive oil, when hot, add garlic. Cook until golden, reduce flame to low and add pasta back to the pot.

Mix well, add remaining olive oil, grated cheese, salt and pepper to taste mixing well and smashing any large pieces of broccoli to break up
Add 1/2 cup of reserved pasta water and mix well adding more if needed


Tonight is chest and back again. I cannot believe this is week 3! This is most definitely the longest I have ever stuck with anything. I even want to buy a heart rate moniter now so I can track my calories and stuff. I downloaded myfitnesspal for my phone so I can get a handle on my diet as well. I love this new life, it is uplifting to actually care about my body for a change, rather than just eat myself into a stupor and complain about it.